sad, indeed

I posted a YouTube link of BLU's MUTO on my account on Douban. 3 friends told me they couldn't open it because YouTube is possibly banned in China, too.

How can this still be surprising to me, after they banned Wikipedia, Google, Facebook, and hundreds of critics' blog?

So I wrote another entry informing my friends of the link on Vimeo and the download link on BLU's website. This is the English translation of my entry:

The link of MUTO on YouTube cannot be opened in China. I wonder if Vimeo can be opened.
If not, please try BLU's website blublu.org. MUTO is free for download. Monetary donation is not required but appreciated. However donation is in Euro, because BLU is a Europe-based artist. Harvard University sent him an invitation to draw a wall in Harvard, BLU refused.

After I posted my entry, I was told that my entry is being censored. For the sake of my life, I cannot figure out why. I wonder if it is something I said or I drew the "lucky straw" in a random censorship policy? Douban showed me a list of possible reasons an entry could be censored or deleted for. It is a list of all kinds of policy that you cannot criticize. Criticizing a policy is against the policy. It is self-protective.

This might be the most pathetic and insecure way to establish an authority. Of course it is not Douban's fault. It is the policy environment that Douban has to survive. Douban is just a website after all. It can be easily censored or deleted, just like my entry, due to its violation of some bigger policy.

Eva could survive in China because she works with commercial/mainstream cinema. Danjie could develop a career in China because she deals with mainstream visual arts. Not me, not now. The whole idea of avant-garde is against unity, against censorship, against constraints, against power, against any form of control. It is supposed to be limitless. I love China, but I know I cannot go back.